Do I have enough reasons to stay?

I am depressed, frustrated, pressured, anxious, and a little bit insane.
I am under the impression that I will be ending this year disastrously if I don't do anything about it. I did it once, I am pretty sure that I can do it again.

Should I leave or should I stay?

reasons:
Stay

1. I will hurt my family if I don't.
2. I cannot leave the publication in a time like this.
3. I will hurt a lot of people.
4. Some people will be more depressed than I am
5. I don't want to be pathetic [even if I already sound and act like one].
6. I'll be wasting 19 years of my existence.
7. Haven't reach at least one of my goals yet.
8. It's a sin.

Leave

1. I am surrounded by dreadful odds.
2. I just can't face the rest of the family with this.
3. I'm the world's greatest failure.
4. I will hurt my family even if I stay
5. I had enough of this world.
6. It's too much!
7. I can't take it anymore.
8. leaving is the best option my tired mind could formulate and it would better than staying.

wish me luck...