Self-evaluation.

Yanz is...
...a writer.
...a procastinator.
...a dreamer.
...a reluctant leader.
...a friend who will always be there.
...a lady trapped in a child's body.
...a daughter who wants her parents proud.
...a sister who loves her brother more than anybody else.
...a sinner saved by grace.
...a lost soul.


She wants to...
...have a baby brother.
...adopt a child when she's 25.
...start dating at 21.
...fix her life.
...be accepted.
...find herself.
...go back to Mindanao and probably live there for good.
...work for the United Nations.
...join the army.
...live and die with dignity.

She's happy because...
=>she has friends who love her.
=>she had parents who unconditionally supports her.
=>she's slowly understanding why out of the millions of sperms she was the one chosen to live.
=>she's growing up.
=>she has the freedom to express herself.
=>she found people who unconditionally accepted her.
=>she's learning to live one day at a time.
=>she could finally find happiness in simple things.
=>she's earning (a little).
=>she deserves to be.

But she's sad because...
= she messed up her life.
= somebody broke her heart.
= people raise their eyebrows when she cries.
= she got lost and can't find her way back.
= she feels alone.
= she misses her friends.
= she wants to turn back the time but can't.

But she still hopes to...
++ find the way back.
++ get over all this.
++ remain strong.
++ see the finish line.
++ fight till the end.
++ live up to the expectations of her family.
++ fix her broken battered heart.
++ find what she lost.
++ finally find real happiness.