of dreams and realities

only you can make your dreams come true.

really. that is why i believe that only me can make my dream birthday a reality.
no one else can make it happen. if i rely on other people, i'll only be frustrated and hurt. so i will work on it and will do my best to make this dream birthday real.

though i cannot imagine myself wandering along unfamiliar streets alone, probably snapping photos of whatever there is to see, i will not let my doubts hinder me from proving to myself that i can make this come true. this will be an ultimate test of independence for me.

i will do this because i believe that i deserve a treat for myself (not that i don't ever get a treat for myself---i'm selfish by nature) and i also deserve a happy birthday after all the disastrous birthdays i had since as far as i can remember. in fact, thinking about it, i think i only had two birthdays that i really enjoyed. one when i was a senior high school student and the second one was when i was a junior mass communication student and my classmates surprised me with a birthday cake. really, those are the rare times when people actually remembers my birthday and do something about it.

so i promised myself that on my next birthday i will treat myself and i will do the thing that will make me happy the most. so yes, on my birthday i am going to travel. the destination is still muddled but i already have three choices. plan a will be cagayan de oro, plan b will be baguio city and (if all else fail) plan c will be cebu city.

these are the dreams.
the realities? i don't even want to talk about it.