I have exams the whole day (so what am I doing here posting on my blog?). Haven't edited the articles for the 3rd issue. Have to finish my research and narrative report. Have to make a broadcast copy (cebuano, Pilipino and English). Confused whether I should stay overnight or what. But most probably will. Got a class tomorrow and still have a lot to do. There is just not enough time!
I think this is just one of the causes of my 'giving up' modes. I just feel so tired and I want to focus my attention to one thing. And I know it should be my studies. But if I do so, I will never be able to perform my duties well in the publication and it would be unforgivable.
God, sooner or later I will have to choose!
I mean, I don't think I should be staying overnights during school nights because I have classes in the morning and whenever I stay for overnight I get these chest pains which then causes me to miss my morning classes. But how can I not stay overnight? I'm an editor for God's sake! I have to stay overnight for the proofreading.
As I've said before, my body never had a proper rest since last semester and I think its starting to show now. Maybe the others would think that I am so OA or what but I have to accept the fact that no matter how much I try to be really really active in the pub, I just can't anymore. My health is suffering already. I have never really been the healthiest person in the world, not even in this office, but I always try to do my best to perform my duties even when I am not feeling well.
I just don't know if I could still do it now. This year is just so crucial for me as I have to graduate by the end of it. I have to prioritize my studies because its my future. I have to lay-low with the publication because even though it is important to me my studies is of utmost importance especially in the long run. But how can I lay-low? I mean, I just can't stop coming here of course. I couldn't just avoid overnights. I mean, its part of my responsibility to be there.
I really don't know. I have to think things over and try to manage my time and everything else. I'll try to adjust everything. I mean, that's the only thing I can do now.
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