i'll never be an artist.=)

i've always wanted to be an artist. i've always wanted to draw, paint, sketch, etc. i love art and i appreciate art. my parents are both artistic and so is my brother. my father could sketch well, my mom could draw and paint and my brother could draw anything he puts his mind into.
me? phew!

i can write (but not as well as i hope to be) but apart from writing i don't have any other skills or talents. i can speak in public but i am not really comfortable with it. i can't sing or dance, not even to save my life.

when i was really young i tried to develop my 'artistic capabilities' but to no avail. maybe because nobody really did encouraged me and instead of encouraging me, people often compare me with my brother which discouraged me even more.

i used to finger paint and melt crayons for my 'art' and used to think that my artworks were masterpieces. but instead of being praised, i was often reprimanded for wasting my newly bought crayons and messing my clothes. so i stopped and never acquired any kind of artistic abilities.

and whatever artistic ability that i might have, it all disappeared a long time ago. now, its too late to resurrect a long dead skill (or talent, or whatever you want to call it). i have always lamented the fact that i could have been a good artist if only i did not stop before. i mean, i could surely have inherited something from both my parents right?

but well, it's surely too late now. i'll never really be a real artist...end of story.