it's time to go back.

I had been reading Scarlette (a sequel to Margaret Mitchelle's Gone with the Wind) when all of a sudden I found myself putting down the book and started looking for my Bible. Not that the book invokes any religious thought in me but I did spent the next 30 minutes looking for my Bible.

And the fact that it took me thirty minutes to find the Bible is an evidence enough that I hadn't been reading my Bible in long time already. In fact, I know for a fact that I haven't been reading it for more than a year now and to say that I am ashamed of myself is an understatement. And while the search for the Bible is going on, I also found myself contemplating on my spiritual life and realized that I could now point my finger to the one reason why God has been showering me with trials this year.

God forgive me but I haven't been going to church, praying or reading the bible for sometime now. I grew up in a Christian family and praying and going to church has already been a part of my life while I was growing up. But what now?

I think its time that I finally go back to the fold. It's time to enrich my spiritual life again and start living like a Christian again. It has been a long time since I last join the worship service and a long time since I opened my heart to God. It is mortifying to realize that I only pray when I needed something to happen to my life and never even uttered short prayer of thanks to God for all the things he did to me.

Darn, I'm such a little devil. I need to have my horns and my tails removed and, of course, throw the abominable pitchfork away. So help me God.