I remembered it vividly when I first woke up but now its slowly fading. I hope I will completely forget about it in the morning. I don't want it to bother me although I must admit the fact that I dreamt about him bothered me already.
I dreamed of someone I thought I already forgot and strange that even in my dream I refused to say his name. It was not a bad dream if truth be told. It was a good dream (which only makes it more strange). I wonder if something happened to him. I have this scary tendency to dream of someone close to me (or used to be close to me) when something happens to them (i.e sick or whatever). Despite everything, I still hope he is fine. I'll say it once again, I hold no grudges against him. It was never his fault. I was just too young to understand everything.
I wonder if this means anything or if I am simply over-analyzing some dumb dream. It makes me wonder because I have never really thought of him for sometime now so it is strange that I would dream of him. They say dreams are our subconscious thoughts, does this mean I am thinking of him subconsciously? Or does this mean that despite of my belief that I have completely moved on with my life, I still have suppressed feelings for him? I wonder.
Weird. I am talking psychology to myself. Great! Now this feels stupid.
Whatever this means, with all my heart, I pray he is fine. After all, regardless of what happened before, he became a part of my life and helped me become who I am.
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