i still try to look at the bright side

lately, all i can think of is giving up. i am tired. so tired.
it doesn't show much but i feel so stressed. i can't focus and i can't think straight.
there are days when i would lie in bed and wish i'll never wake up.
i just want to rest.

but i try to think of all my dreams. i try to think of all the people who still believes in me.
i think of all my plans. i think of everyone who brings a smile to my face. i think of people tries to cheer me up. i think of all the perks and advantage of this.

i need time away from here. i need time away from this room.
i need to rest. i need more than sleep. i need to refresh my mind.

i still try to look at the bright side of life. my motivation wall is full. i still have a lot of things that gives me a reason to go on.


but do you want to know the truth? i hate this monotonous life that sometimes i wish i could just die.