People Say

People say,

i'm weird because i go to different places by myself, eat by myself, shop by myself and basically do stuff by myself.

what they don't know is that,

i want to go with my friends but they are busy. they all have their own lives now and their interests does not exactly align with mine. they have jobs and commitments that they also need to do and i can't just force them to go with me for my own happiness. So i go alone and do my best to enjoy the moment.

People say,

i'm insensitive and can never relate with anyone's emotions.

what they don't know is that,

i am not insensitive. in fact, i can always detect that there is something wrong even before people start acknowledging it. i can detect tensions between people who refuse to admit they are quarrelling. i can feel it if someone doesn't like me or just pretends to like me. i can feel if someone is down and sad. the reason why i don't react when people tell me things is because i don't know what to do. i am socially awkward and i know it. emotional situations are especially awkward for me because i am not the type of person who easily shares my emotions to anyone or show my emotion to anyone--not even my family. so when someone cries in front of me, i don't know what to do or what to say. when someone shares their problem to me i keep silent because i feel like i don't have the right to give an advise because most of the time, i have never gone through what they are going through. besides, i never say the right things and don't really like saying things i probably don't mean anyway so i decide that i'd just listen. it's much better than hurting your feelings more with whatever comes out of my mouth.

but this does not mean i don't care. i'm just not really good with emotions.

People say,

i should get a boyfriend so i'll be happy.

What they don't know is that,

i am already happy. besides, a boyfriend is not like a dog you can just get from a pet shop and expect it to make you happy. truth is, i don't see the point of having a boyfriend. i mean, why? so someone will love me? i have family and friends and they all love me. so someone will take care of me? i can take care of myself. so someone will buy me gifts? i don't like asking for gifts even from my parents. so someone can take me home and fetch me? i am fine going home by myself. so why do i need to have a boyfriend? because everyone else has? because my friends have one? that's lame.

People say,

i'm KJ because i don't drink or party.


What they don't know is that,

i think it's stupid to think that only liquor and rowdy music can give you fun.
we all have different ideas of fun. not all of us find loud music fun.not all of us find happiness in a bottle of red horse.

i know how to have fun but not the kind most people find fun. extreme adventure, hiking, a little bit of danger--- these are what i call fun. come with me to the mountains and i'll show you what fun is. challenge me to an adventure and i'll say yes. but liquor? no thanks, i have lived 23 years without that in my system. i believe i can live the rest of my life without that.

there are a lot of things people say about me that i never really take seriously. if i listen to all of them, i'd go nuts. so, i just let them continue with their impressions of me. you can't please them all anyway.