Random Ramblings

3pm.
i know i should be asleep by now or at least preparing to. i will have a full shift again tonight without any prospect of an early out plus the possibility of a bad news.

i don't want to think about it.

i have a lot of things in my mind. i am thinking about things that may or may not happen and i am telling myself it is stupid to do so. it is a waste of energy.

i am thinking of things that has happened. i am thinking of things that may happen. i am thinking of things than can happen. heck, i'm even thinking of things that will not happen.

i am thinking of people i have met and i can't forget though i am sure they have already forgotten about me. i am thinking of everyone who came and left. i am thinking of those who came and stayed. i am thinking who will come and who may never come.

i told you, i have a lot in my mind. lately, i worry too much. signs of old age most likely.

i am thinking of things that i have done and things i didn't do. i am thinking of things i should have done and i am also thinking of those i shouldn't have done.

i am thinking of the past, the present and the future. i am a prisoner of my own mind. i am a  servant of my own thoughts.

i am lost.