there are some people you can never forget. people you would rather not remember because the memories you have of them are so bitter that your body goes into shock the moment you start remembering them.
the sound of their names constricts your breathing. a glimpse of their photos gives you unexplained headaches and chest pains. you want to deny their very existence just so you can ease the pain you feel. you want to pretend you never met them so you can also pretend you were never hurt when they left.
these are people who, at some point, made you happy but whose memory you associated with pain. your broken heart is their legacy. from them you learned that the thing that made you happy the most is also the very same thing that can hurt you the greatest. they taught you emotions you've never felt or known before. unfortunately, these emotions include a hot-searing pain that makes you feel like someone is holding your heart and squeezing it dry. it includes sleepless nights, buckets of tears, and your self-confidence.
yes, these are people who has left a legacy of unendurable pain in you. they are the people who broke your heart into a million pieces, gathered the pieces, froze it and smashed it again. they are the people whom you may have shared a lot of happy memories with but which you can no longer remember because the memory of their departure is more memorable than their arrival or even their stay.
as much as you want to forget about them, you will never be able to. they have left their marks in your life. as difficult as it may be to admit, they left you with battlescars that made you stronger. the legacy of pain which they left behind allowed you to survive other pains that you have encountered or will be encountering. because they broke your heart to pieces you were able to share your heart to more people.
thank them because they made you who you are. thank them because they taught you a valuable lesson in life- there will always be pain but you will survive. thank them because if not for them, you will never learn to value those people who remained beside you. thank them because if they did not leave, you will never learn the art of moving on (which you are still trying to do until now).
you may no longer remember the happy memories you had with them but pretending that it did not happen does not change the fact that it did. you can never change the fact that once in your life, you gave your heart to them.
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